Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Im Stupid :(

Goodnite??

Its morning already. A dark morning. He he.
Now 1:38 am. WOW. Still not sleep yet. Thats sound good. Heh!
Shhhh~ Dont tell my boyfriend i sleep late always. Zipped. I dont want him too much worry about me. Sorry sweetheart. L<3ve>. Mwah!

This morning i didnt come to Microeconomics class. Study burden me. Cant think and understand. Urrgh! My eyes sleepy. Last nite i sleep late too.
I was too lazy to walk to the college. I wish i have a bicycle. Only me use a bicycle to the college? Crazy Uh! No way. I dont want that happen.
Urgh! I cant focus to study anymore. IM STUPID, okay?! Im not that clever person. I just have 30% intellegent part in my brain. The others, lost/dissapear.
How im going to tell my mom i want to quit my study? Should i pretend i took an exam this december and fail then tell her i dont want to take exam anymore for excuses the payment is too expensive??? O God. What have i done! I can't save myself. My future is ruin. Im ruin it. :(
I really regret it now. I feel quilty to my mom.

"Im sorry Mom. I know u will mad at me. I cant really do this anymore. I want to quit. Im sorry i waste your money. Later i pay you back. "=.=

( wish i could use this word to talk face 2 face with her. EEEeee..~ takutnyer aku! )
When its time, I will tell her everything. Ready kena bom atom.. :(


“Tomorrow will give us something to think about”


To think what?? I think everyday ! Til my brain explode? urggh!


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