Im so sick being like this. Why all this must keep repeating the same thing? Why it doesn't want go away from my head? I breakin my brain out. I dont even know what i should do to stay away from this dilemma.
Im really depressed. Its really hard to forget someone who we really love for such a long time. A person that i really really love. A person who really really care about me too much. How should i forget all his kindness and honesty for what he had done to me until he willingly sacrifice something that can't be doned by other peoples. He is the only one person that really care me and love me too much like no one do. Im really touched. I feel whole of my body paralyze. I didn't know how amazing this love would be. Cause i never feel falling in love like this before in my whole life. Really! Cause i didn't know how to love someone before. Thats true.
When he appear in my life, then i knew what love is. He teached me everything about it.
Love is beautiful, isn't it?
Now, since his gone, i never see him again. Never feel his love again. About a month already. I cannot SMS or call him anymore. He changed his phone number. Im really sad. I really wish i could see him just once. This dilemma will after me if i didn't see him. I try to find him. But in the end i know i couldn't. Im giving up to find him. I cried alone in my bedroom. Thinking of him, thinking of his face. The way he talk to me before. Thinking the way he touch and kiss me. I cried badly. Then I ask myself, am i doing something right? or am i too stupid that im still loving him and think about him everyday? until when? Oh Lord. What should i do to stop this?
Im really desperate for him. Really need him on my side again. But i know i would not be happend.
I really miss him. Honestly, i never stopped thinking about him. I dreamed about him every night. I know i still love him. But do i have to? Should i? I guess i dunno what the answer is. Only God knows how much he so mean to me. Like the Revd. say. "leaved and Forget all the bad things that he had done. stop think about it. Its already happened.Think of his goodness that what he had done to you. That come from his pure heart and his soul. And not to willing to hate him cause it never have the ending. But must love him cause he belong to God too". I love to heard his word. Really make me relief. I feel peace. No hate but love.
I tried to hate him b4 . But sometimes i changed my mind in a minute tried not to hate him. This is what i call hate but love. I still remember his word. He say he will looking 4 me. But he didn't. Then why now Im in hurry to look after him? I wish i could say that i will always waiting for him. But how long? will i made it? or will i don't. I know, i have to accept this test of life. But i always giving it up. Feel like i cannot continued my life again without him. I think im a loser. Failed to achieve something in life. What should I do with this life God? Im so weak.
Im really depressed. Its really hard to forget someone who we really love for such a long time. A person that i really really love. A person who really really care about me too much. How should i forget all his kindness and honesty for what he had done to me until he willingly sacrifice something that can't be doned by other peoples. He is the only one person that really care me and love me too much like no one do. Im really touched. I feel whole of my body paralyze. I didn't know how amazing this love would be. Cause i never feel falling in love like this before in my whole life. Really! Cause i didn't know how to love someone before. Thats true.
When he appear in my life, then i knew what love is. He teached me everything about it.
Love is beautiful, isn't it?
Now, since his gone, i never see him again. Never feel his love again. About a month already. I cannot SMS or call him anymore. He changed his phone number. Im really sad. I really wish i could see him just once. This dilemma will after me if i didn't see him. I try to find him. But in the end i know i couldn't. Im giving up to find him. I cried alone in my bedroom. Thinking of him, thinking of his face. The way he talk to me before. Thinking the way he touch and kiss me. I cried badly. Then I ask myself, am i doing something right? or am i too stupid that im still loving him and think about him everyday? until when? Oh Lord. What should i do to stop this?
Im really desperate for him. Really need him on my side again. But i know i would not be happend.
I really miss him. Honestly, i never stopped thinking about him. I dreamed about him every night. I know i still love him. But do i have to? Should i? I guess i dunno what the answer is. Only God knows how much he so mean to me. Like the Revd. say. "leaved and Forget all the bad things that he had done. stop think about it. Its already happened.Think of his goodness that what he had done to you. That come from his pure heart and his soul. And not to willing to hate him cause it never have the ending. But must love him cause he belong to God too". I love to heard his word. Really make me relief. I feel peace. No hate but love.
I tried to hate him b4 . But sometimes i changed my mind in a minute tried not to hate him. This is what i call hate but love. I still remember his word. He say he will looking 4 me. But he didn't. Then why now Im in hurry to look after him? I wish i could say that i will always waiting for him. But how long? will i made it? or will i don't. I know, i have to accept this test of life. But i always giving it up. Feel like i cannot continued my life again without him. I think im a loser. Failed to achieve something in life. What should I do with this life God? Im so weak.
