Quiting college. Seems like i make a big mistake in my life. I mean really big mistake. I thought i could go far. But im stranded on the middle of the road.
What have I've done? Am I gonna ruin my own future? What will happen to you? Are do you the right things?
Those creepy question keep hunting me everyday causing me can't make any decisions . My mouth zipped. And i couldn't answer it. I was in my own FANTASY.
I am no one. I'm not perfect. I have my LOVE-LIFE suck. I'm easily giving up. I'm weak. I'm just a lonely person with too many secret inside that no one couldn't figure. I couldn't believe my own faith either.
My LOVE-LIFE try to fade me away. I was lost because of it.
Why LOVE should exist? Why LOVE makes people hurts? Why I must have those FEELINGS??
I don't need all those things. I don't believe in LOVE anymore. LOVE hunted me.
I know me and him couldn't make it trough. Unfair is it? This world so cruel is it? If i have one wish, I wish i could turn back time where all its happened. Where I've done a big mistake onto him. Im sorry for what I've done. I've destroyed our relationship. There's nothing both of us can't do. One of your side can't accept me. Neither am i.
I know we both can accept it. But we have too. It for our best. We have to let our LOVE go and i couldn't say goodbye.
Remembering those memories of you and me. How hurts to remembering it. You take my happiness. My heart faded.
How will i be happy without you? I just can't pretend i'm happy and fake my smile so no one could no how broken and weak am i.
My life turns black. I couldn't saw any light. Its dark.
Soon, I'm leaving. Leaving my college and leaving this town. I'm going back to where i belong. I couldn't stayed here too much longer. I know i couldn't take care of myself. I always getting sick. I've lost my appetite. Sleep too late. I was stressed and depressed.
Living in a rent room alone..can caused me CRAZY. I couldn't stand it anymore. I need to go back home. I'm suffered enough.
I already feels it.