1 more day left before i moved to Kuching to further my study. Today, Suddenly i feel happy. No reason why. Crazy? Indeed i am.
Thinking back what i was doing last nite is really crazy and insane. Drink a beers and get drunk, punch a wall. Ouch! HURTS! Damd It! And cried hardly like a person who are going to die. I dunno where the hell i am that time.
When i look back in the mirror, i saw myself turned into someone else. Someone who lost their identity. Empty. Without nothing inside in their life. Feel weak, unhappy and hate.
Seriously, i didnt know what just happened to me last nite. Possesed? Think it twice, maybe No.
Or Depressed? Think twice, Sure is. Its really insane and crazy and idiot things that i had made in my life in this whole Damd Week. Im suffer enough.
I feel really guilty that i make my ex come into my life again.Like parasit that sneak out into someone life. If i know he is not single, I won't took him back. Cause it will make me hurts.
Now. Look. What just happened to both of us. We both suffered. We both hurt. I thought taking him back will make everything's okay. But it gave both of us like a disaster. Like tsunami.
Now. I dont want to think about what happened last nite. Really idiot i am. =.=
Why must have love? Love just hurting peoples heart. There are lies and unhonest. My lovelife sucks! You know what. I dont have any feeling to be in love with anyone else. I dunno why. Coz, i only got my ex. Hmm~
I dont care what people talking shit behind me about why i still wanted my ex back .. Look like i care?? I just follow my heart. But am i doing the right things?
I dont really know. I just know that i am stupid. = ="
Just now i called my ex. Im happy to heard tis part.
He really mad. I got no idea to say. So i just listen to what he say. But i think 4 sure. He never ever gonna believe me. Naaah! Zipped my mouth.
Just now i delete my Friendster and my Facebook. Uh! Will miss em.
Now, Its time to think whats good. Clear all my bad thinking and my bad feelings. Deleted. Its time to start a new life. Life that i always want to live with it. My future. Study!Heaven Yeah!
Love will be my second. No need to rushed in life. I wish i could be a success person and be myself just like today. I wish i could be the happiest and craziest person ever. Congrats to me! :)
When i look back in the mirror, i saw myself turned into someone else. Someone who lost their identity. Empty. Without nothing inside in their life. Feel weak, unhappy and hate.
Seriously, i didnt know what just happened to me last nite. Possesed? Think it twice, maybe No.
Or Depressed? Think twice, Sure is. Its really insane and crazy and idiot things that i had made in my life in this whole Damd Week. Im suffer enough.
I feel really guilty that i make my ex come into my life again.Like parasit that sneak out into someone life. If i know he is not single, I won't took him back. Cause it will make me hurts.
Now. Look. What just happened to both of us. We both suffered. We both hurt. I thought taking him back will make everything's okay. But it gave both of us like a disaster. Like tsunami.
Now. I dont want to think about what happened last nite. Really idiot i am. =.=
Why must have love? Love just hurting peoples heart. There are lies and unhonest. My lovelife sucks! You know what. I dont have any feeling to be in love with anyone else. I dunno why. Coz, i only got my ex. Hmm~
I dont care what people talking shit behind me about why i still wanted my ex back .. Look like i care?? I just follow my heart. But am i doing the right things?
I dont really know. I just know that i am stupid. = ="
Just now i called my ex. Im happy to heard tis part.
Me: Are you happy :)?
Biey: I am happy.
Me: Why?
Biey: Because i can be with you again.
Me: (smile) ( I knew it!) If i change my number do you want me to tell u my number?
Biey: (suddenly mad) You have to! Are you trying to throw me after you find me! What happened to you!
Me: (scared) Im just asking. I didnt meant to throw you again after i found u. I didnt want to lose you...~
Biey: I am happy.
Me: Why?
Biey: Because i can be with you again.
Me: (smile) ( I knew it!) If i change my number do you want me to tell u my number?
Biey: (suddenly mad) You have to! Are you trying to throw me after you find me! What happened to you!
Me: (scared) Im just asking. I didnt meant to throw you again after i found u. I didnt want to lose you...~
He really mad. I got no idea to say. So i just listen to what he say. But i think 4 sure. He never ever gonna believe me. Naaah! Zipped my mouth.
Just now i delete my Friendster and my Facebook. Uh! Will miss em.
Now, Its time to think whats good. Clear all my bad thinking and my bad feelings. Deleted. Its time to start a new life. Life that i always want to live with it. My future. Study!Heaven Yeah!
Love will be my second. No need to rushed in life. I wish i could be a success person and be myself just like today. I wish i could be the happiest and craziest person ever. Congrats to me! :)
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