What?! I have to take care of him! Make a milk, Shower him, Sleeping him, change his diapers, throw his poop! euww! Urhh~ Please make me cry!
Suffer! Choked and die, Please~
O damd. I hate do that. Im not ready to be a "mother". Kids? Stay away from me!
Damd u lil bro! U are totally a MONKEY! Urrrgh! Im so tired because of you!
kacau sana, kacau sini! Hissh! MONYET!
Wat a stupid college! need to pay again! PENALTY?! Fuck off! RM50! Urgggh! u guys didnt tell me all the details about the college! SHIT! PAYUI! Y all private college like that! Class just only once a week? urgggh! Manah nda iboh skul skali..Rugi ngapa!
Stupid College! Just now u give me the name tag. kan bodo!
Yesterday~
i fight wif my boyfriend. Duhh~ Whats my false, babe? is it wrong that i try to make u happy? Its my "credit" to call you. Not yours. I told you rite, if i tell u, u say wrong. If i didnt tell you, u oso say me wrong. Wat do you want actually babe? Tell Me. I need to know. I dont want to force you anymore. I love you so much~ Damd love you and miss you. I accept ur forgiveness babe. I know you love me. :)Thanks babe.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Baby Sitting.
I LOVE MY SAYANG, ALWAYS!!
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Na..na...na...
Oh.. today having a good time~
Still awake at this time... tick tock tick tock~ watch the clock..
ArrrH~ 4 am.. Nice Ursulla.. keep it up!
Yeah! 4 a.m~ didn't sleep yet. It will repeating again soon. Gladly tomorrow no class. What a boring.
As usually. Writing my blog here. Crapping here crapping there. Huuh~ Just 4 fun isn't it?
Just now, my uncle and her wife took me for a walked to the MBKS. Actually i dunno where it was. Kuching? DUUH~
How im supposed to know. Uh!
We go there by motorcycle. It take 2 trip to go there. My uncle sent her wife and her daughter first. Then im the last.
The place where we went to is not quite far away from the place where we live. How great!
After arrived, i can see many stall selling a food, drink and many more. Just like "pasar tani" except didn't selling a fruit and vegetable.
Then..We went to the Garden Park.
GEEESH~ how awewsome. The landscape touch my view. Damd! Beauty. I try to take my own photo but to crowded with people so im giving up. To shy. Huhu.
But i just took this pic.
I took this pic here.
Haih! The light disturb the view. Cannot see clearly. Sorry yah~
Really nice park. Really nice place for date. Haha. Sadly, i dont have any date. >_<>Hate GAY! Euuw~
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
First day class :)
At last~ Something that i wish for so long time... Came true. Ahhh~
Nerdy Nerdy here i COME!
Im now in Kuching. I continued my study in Segi College. Nice campus :)
Yesterday, is my registration for August intake. Everything doing so far so good.
Okay. After all the registration and the payment are complete. Now, lets talk about the accommodation of the college. Mom talked to the admin about the accommodation/ hostel for me. Quite expensive also.
Talk talk and talk~ Fullstop. Then, this lady came. My mom told her whether we can see the hostel first. Then the lady nodded. And we followed her to the hostel.
After arrived at the hostel~ = =".. Puting beliung pun datang~ woooosh! woooosh!
OMG! Its amazing HORRIBLE! Euww! Who want to live a place like that. I rather CHOKED myself and DIE on the spot! I live in the jungle is better.
I just keep my mouth shut. I saw my mom face, I knew she don't want me to stay in that kinda place. I can read my mom thoughts. Its dirty and really disgusting place i ever saw.Plus, the room is shared with the boy rooms. WTF~
Mom still discovered around the hostel. And me. Could not watch it anymore.
Suddenly my mom told me.
Mom: Kak d bilik tok ursulla? Nyu baka nama~
Me: *Thinking.* Nodded. ( How stupid i am = ="..Uh!)
Mom still think about it first. Not comfirm yet.
We went back to the car. Mom called my uncle and tell him wether the place where he live got a room 4 rent or not.
Thank GOD! My uncle told her tat got a room for rent in his place.
The hostel? Boleh Blah! Bye Bye~
The place where my uncle live is not far from my campus. It takes about 5-10 minute if i walked from my uncle place to the campus. Nasib baik dekat~hmm~ :)
Well yesterday is my first class in Segi College. Doing so fine. Meet new people. Hee~
Kinda have fun with it. Yeay! Totally be nerdy.. aha!
Nerdy Nerdy here i COME!
Im now in Kuching. I continued my study in Segi College. Nice campus :)
Yesterday, is my registration for August intake. Everything doing so far so good.
Okay. After all the registration and the payment are complete. Now, lets talk about the accommodation of the college. Mom talked to the admin about the accommodation/ hostel for me. Quite expensive also.
Talk talk and talk~ Fullstop. Then, this lady came. My mom told her whether we can see the hostel first. Then the lady nodded. And we followed her to the hostel.
After arrived at the hostel~ = =".. Puting beliung pun datang~ woooosh! woooosh!
OMG! Its amazing HORRIBLE! Euww! Who want to live a place like that. I rather CHOKED myself and DIE on the spot! I live in the jungle is better.
I just keep my mouth shut. I saw my mom face, I knew she don't want me to stay in that kinda place. I can read my mom thoughts. Its dirty and really disgusting place i ever saw.Plus, the room is shared with the boy rooms. WTF~
Mom still discovered around the hostel. And me. Could not watch it anymore.
Suddenly my mom told me.
Mom: Kak d bilik tok ursulla? Nyu baka nama~
Me: *Thinking.* Nodded. ( How stupid i am = ="..Uh!)
Mom still think about it first. Not comfirm yet.
We went back to the car. Mom called my uncle and tell him wether the place where he live got a room 4 rent or not.
Thank GOD! My uncle told her tat got a room for rent in his place.
The hostel? Boleh Blah! Bye Bye~
The place where my uncle live is not far from my campus. It takes about 5-10 minute if i walked from my uncle place to the campus. Nasib baik dekat~hmm~ :)
Well yesterday is my first class in Segi College. Doing so fine. Meet new people. Hee~
Kinda have fun with it. Yeay! Totally be nerdy.. aha!
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Happy no reason
1 more day left before i moved to Kuching to further my study. Today, Suddenly i feel happy. No reason why. Crazy? Indeed i am.
Thinking back what i was doing last nite is really crazy and insane. Drink a beers and get drunk, punch a wall. Ouch! HURTS! Damd It! And cried hardly like a person who are going to die. I dunno where the hell i am that time.
When i look back in the mirror, i saw myself turned into someone else. Someone who lost their identity. Empty. Without nothing inside in their life. Feel weak, unhappy and hate.
Seriously, i didnt know what just happened to me last nite. Possesed? Think it twice, maybe No.
Or Depressed? Think twice, Sure is. Its really insane and crazy and idiot things that i had made in my life in this whole Damd Week. Im suffer enough.
I feel really guilty that i make my ex come into my life again.Like parasit that sneak out into someone life. If i know he is not single, I won't took him back. Cause it will make me hurts.
Now. Look. What just happened to both of us. We both suffered. We both hurt. I thought taking him back will make everything's okay. But it gave both of us like a disaster. Like tsunami.
Now. I dont want to think about what happened last nite. Really idiot i am. =.=
Why must have love? Love just hurting peoples heart. There are lies and unhonest. My lovelife sucks! You know what. I dont have any feeling to be in love with anyone else. I dunno why. Coz, i only got my ex. Hmm~
I dont care what people talking shit behind me about why i still wanted my ex back .. Look like i care?? I just follow my heart. But am i doing the right things?
I dont really know. I just know that i am stupid. = ="
Just now i called my ex. Im happy to heard tis part.
He really mad. I got no idea to say. So i just listen to what he say. But i think 4 sure. He never ever gonna believe me. Naaah! Zipped my mouth.
Just now i delete my Friendster and my Facebook. Uh! Will miss em.
Now, Its time to think whats good. Clear all my bad thinking and my bad feelings. Deleted. Its time to start a new life. Life that i always want to live with it. My future. Study!Heaven Yeah!
Love will be my second. No need to rushed in life. I wish i could be a success person and be myself just like today. I wish i could be the happiest and craziest person ever. Congrats to me! :)
When i look back in the mirror, i saw myself turned into someone else. Someone who lost their identity. Empty. Without nothing inside in their life. Feel weak, unhappy and hate.
Seriously, i didnt know what just happened to me last nite. Possesed? Think it twice, maybe No.
Or Depressed? Think twice, Sure is. Its really insane and crazy and idiot things that i had made in my life in this whole Damd Week. Im suffer enough.
I feel really guilty that i make my ex come into my life again.Like parasit that sneak out into someone life. If i know he is not single, I won't took him back. Cause it will make me hurts.
Now. Look. What just happened to both of us. We both suffered. We both hurt. I thought taking him back will make everything's okay. But it gave both of us like a disaster. Like tsunami.
Now. I dont want to think about what happened last nite. Really idiot i am. =.=
Why must have love? Love just hurting peoples heart. There are lies and unhonest. My lovelife sucks! You know what. I dont have any feeling to be in love with anyone else. I dunno why. Coz, i only got my ex. Hmm~
I dont care what people talking shit behind me about why i still wanted my ex back .. Look like i care?? I just follow my heart. But am i doing the right things?
I dont really know. I just know that i am stupid. = ="
Just now i called my ex. Im happy to heard tis part.
Me: Are you happy :)?
Biey: I am happy.
Me: Why?
Biey: Because i can be with you again.
Me: (smile) ( I knew it!) If i change my number do you want me to tell u my number?
Biey: (suddenly mad) You have to! Are you trying to throw me after you find me! What happened to you!
Me: (scared) Im just asking. I didnt meant to throw you again after i found u. I didnt want to lose you...~
Biey: I am happy.
Me: Why?
Biey: Because i can be with you again.
Me: (smile) ( I knew it!) If i change my number do you want me to tell u my number?
Biey: (suddenly mad) You have to! Are you trying to throw me after you find me! What happened to you!
Me: (scared) Im just asking. I didnt meant to throw you again after i found u. I didnt want to lose you...~
He really mad. I got no idea to say. So i just listen to what he say. But i think 4 sure. He never ever gonna believe me. Naaah! Zipped my mouth.
Just now i delete my Friendster and my Facebook. Uh! Will miss em.
Now, Its time to think whats good. Clear all my bad thinking and my bad feelings. Deleted. Its time to start a new life. Life that i always want to live with it. My future. Study!Heaven Yeah!
Love will be my second. No need to rushed in life. I wish i could be a success person and be myself just like today. I wish i could be the happiest and craziest person ever. Congrats to me! :)
Friday, August 7, 2009
This Is the Time
This is it. This is the time. i could not hold it any longer. Im tired for looking other colleges to study.
Give me headache saje~
This evening i just received an application form from Segi College. I took a course in Diploma in Businness Management. Kinda hard for me to choose that course. Just now i called my mum.
Me: Mom, i just received a application form from segi college. I take course about Business managent. Can I, mom?
Mom: Business management? Got any other course than that? You take that course its difficult for you. U can't calculate.
Me: *1+1=2 2+2=4(Think). Mom, I dont want to take nursing course. *I know i love science to much(think again). But i want to take this course also mom. The intake will be held on this 17 august. I want to book a ticket to Kuching next week. Maybe leave on 15 august?
Mom: Okay then. Depend on you. But dont try to give up on your study again like yours Open University. I dont want that happend. 15 August? Got early than that?
Me: Errm. Got. But its to expensive. 15 August got RM117 for Air Asia. And MAS like RM154. So how mom?
Mom: Book the early one . Book on Thursday. Early is better. Ask your sister or your dad too book it for you. No. Ask your dad to buy a ticket for you. Understand?
Me: Yaya. Understood. Later i tell him. Thats it mom.
Mom: Bah..Bah..
( No Goodbye greeting) = ="
Now. I didnt tell my dad about the ticket coz he's not home yet. Drink Addict Person. Huh~
What i do just wait for him to arrive. But i thing that i know for sure. He come home and he drunk~
Welcome back my good mood! :)
- The End-
Give me headache saje~
This evening i just received an application form from Segi College. I took a course in Diploma in Businness Management. Kinda hard for me to choose that course. Just now i called my mum.
Me: Mom, i just received a application form from segi college. I take course about Business managent. Can I, mom?
Mom: Business management? Got any other course than that? You take that course its difficult for you. U can't calculate.
Me: *1+1=2 2+2=4(Think). Mom, I dont want to take nursing course. *I know i love science to much(think again). But i want to take this course also mom. The intake will be held on this 17 august. I want to book a ticket to Kuching next week. Maybe leave on 15 august?
Mom: Okay then. Depend on you. But dont try to give up on your study again like yours Open University. I dont want that happend. 15 August? Got early than that?
Me: Errm. Got. But its to expensive. 15 August got RM117 for Air Asia. And MAS like RM154. So how mom?
Mom: Book the early one . Book on Thursday. Early is better. Ask your sister or your dad too book it for you. No. Ask your dad to buy a ticket for you. Understand?
Me: Yaya. Understood. Later i tell him. Thats it mom.
Mom: Bah..Bah..
( No Goodbye greeting) = ="
Now. I didnt tell my dad about the ticket coz he's not home yet. Drink Addict Person. Huh~
What i do just wait for him to arrive. But i thing that i know for sure. He come home and he drunk~
Welcome back my good mood! :)
- The End-
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Today and Today la
Here i am still "alive".. waiting to "die" and "alive" again in the morning. Now I feel sleepy.
Today Im really enjoying myself suddenly. Crazy? Aha. I am crazy. Crazy in loneliness. But its ok. I dont mind at all. Like i care? Na'aah~
As usual, I open my "toptop".. duh~ my laptop name. ( = =" ) Go in to my facebook and sign in my msn looking for someone to chatting with. Then i found one. RotRot. Haha. Always there waiting 4 me. Haha. He always make me laughed till my tummy explode like a bomb. Then i die. HaHa .LoL.
We sharing our stupid thought together. Haha. Glad i could know him.
My brother in law came to my house this evening to take my sister stuff to send to her. He had flight to catch to KL to meet my sister. While i play with my "toptop".. suddenly my "brother in law"... not yet brother in law actually..my second sister boyfriend, gave me a money . Not much. Just RM150 only. But i appreciate it.
Im really suprised when he gave me the money without be notice by my older sis. I try to reject it. But money.... Haiya... Desperate for it. Without feel any ashamed, so i took it. I smile at him with shy. Then i say thank you to him.
Actually, im supposed to give RM100 to my older sis. He ask me to give her too. But i didnt. Haha. I didnt give her the money at all. Cause i really dont want it. Haha. Sorry sis.
Desperate for it. Need to buy something with it.
Poor Jaxwell.~ U and my ex are very closed friend b4. But now u two got in fight with each other? My ex starting this problem first. Jax told me. He say my ex isl ike to mad,hypocrite, ego and selfish. Didnt care much about his own friend. Think about himself. OMGDNESS~ I can believe my ex is changed already. Real bad ex. Glad i forgotton him already. Didnt care about him anymore. (really?)*im Babbling again*
But i always support Jax. He is indeed right. Just stand at ur own foot.. Haha.
One day, U will see Kton. What u had done to our own friends including me. Wait and see. U will regret this time. *feel like i hate him = =" * Stupid me!
Today Im really enjoying myself suddenly. Crazy? Aha. I am crazy. Crazy in loneliness. But its ok. I dont mind at all. Like i care? Na'aah~
As usual, I open my "toptop".. duh~ my laptop name. ( = =" ) Go in to my facebook and sign in my msn looking for someone to chatting with. Then i found one. RotRot. Haha. Always there waiting 4 me. Haha. He always make me laughed till my tummy explode like a bomb. Then i die. HaHa .LoL.
We sharing our stupid thought together. Haha. Glad i could know him.
My brother in law came to my house this evening to take my sister stuff to send to her. He had flight to catch to KL to meet my sister. While i play with my "toptop".. suddenly my "brother in law"... not yet brother in law actually..my second sister boyfriend, gave me a money . Not much. Just RM150 only. But i appreciate it.
Im really suprised when he gave me the money without be notice by my older sis. I try to reject it. But money.... Haiya... Desperate for it. Without feel any ashamed, so i took it. I smile at him with shy. Then i say thank you to him.
Actually, im supposed to give RM100 to my older sis. He ask me to give her too. But i didnt. Haha. I didnt give her the money at all. Cause i really dont want it. Haha. Sorry sis.
Desperate for it. Need to buy something with it.
Poor Jaxwell.~ U and my ex are very closed friend b4. But now u two got in fight with each other? My ex starting this problem first. Jax told me. He say my ex isl ike to mad,hypocrite, ego and selfish. Didnt care much about his own friend. Think about himself. OMGDNESS~ I can believe my ex is changed already. Real bad ex. Glad i forgotton him already. Didnt care about him anymore. (really?)*im Babbling again*
But i always support Jax. He is indeed right. Just stand at ur own foot.. Haha.
One day, U will see Kton. What u had done to our own friends including me. Wait and see. U will regret this time. *feel like i hate him = =" * Stupid me!
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Uncontrolled Life
Here i do it again. Again, again and again. Its about 4.23 a.m. I really dont know what will happend to me if this habit keep repeating again and again. Its turn to my nightmare already. I failed to controlling myself from late sleep. I really feel tired this few days. I didnt have enough sleep. 3 to 5 hours? Hell no! Its still not enoughed. I know dad will scold me cause i late to wake up. Almost everytime. I tried to stop being this INSOMNIA things. I know it will effect my health. I hate being sick. Just like want to kill me. I never do this before since Clayton still have relationship with me even that time i have a laptop to played. Now i have my own laptop. And i addicted to it. Online for sure. Its just sent me like a virus to my life. Then started to make my life really miserable. Uncontrolled Life.
Life? Whats life is all about? Should it be this hard? I dont get it. Just now, I sms with my friend name Walter. I pretend that im not in the good mood that that. Actually im happy. Haha. Stupid is it? I told him that i really still cannot let my ex go. I still thinking of him everyday everynight. Then he told me that he has the same problem with his ex too. But life must go on. There will be someone out there will waiting for you.
Waiting for me? I wish that was not you walter. Haha. Yeah. You're right. Life must go on. I told him.
Funny. Since im with my ex i never felt this happy. Hurm. My life become more wild than it use to be. Really.
Since i got this "VIRUS" its makes my day more brighter. Threw my boredness away.
Then some fun appear. Facebook .Facebook is really cool. I got many friends in there. . Just now i play the chat box in the facebook . I chat with Ah boy known as The Chicken. Then, Wayzer The Carrot, Gregory the Tapir, Moses the Duck, Larry The Dumd Dumd and Biku the Krekky and more.
Nice name maker i am. haha. U guys make me go nuts. Haha. Glad to know u guys in there.
Especially Larry. I dont know what happened to u when u chat with me just now. Unnormal person. Ur behavior really unawesome and freak. U always say this word "pa ka?" again and again. I dont know what ur brain made of..Really dont understand you. Susah ada manusia macam tu. Huh. = = "
Letih aku layan karenah korang......!
Thats all for today. :)
The End.
Life? Whats life is all about? Should it be this hard? I dont get it. Just now, I sms with my friend name Walter. I pretend that im not in the good mood that that. Actually im happy. Haha. Stupid is it? I told him that i really still cannot let my ex go. I still thinking of him everyday everynight. Then he told me that he has the same problem with his ex too. But life must go on. There will be someone out there will waiting for you.
Waiting for me? I wish that was not you walter. Haha. Yeah. You're right. Life must go on. I told him.
Funny. Since im with my ex i never felt this happy. Hurm. My life become more wild than it use to be. Really.
Since i got this "VIRUS" its makes my day more brighter. Threw my boredness away.
Then some fun appear. Facebook .Facebook is really cool. I got many friends in there. . Just now i play the chat box in the facebook . I chat with Ah boy known as The Chicken. Then, Wayzer The Carrot, Gregory the Tapir, Moses the Duck, Larry The Dumd Dumd and Biku the Krekky and more.
Nice name maker i am. haha. U guys make me go nuts. Haha. Glad to know u guys in there.
Especially Larry. I dont know what happened to u when u chat with me just now. Unnormal person. Ur behavior really unawesome and freak. U always say this word "pa ka?" again and again. I dont know what ur brain made of..Really dont understand you. Susah ada manusia macam tu. Huh. = = "
Letih aku layan karenah korang......!
Thats all for today. :)
The End.
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